The Concept of Front; Multiple Emotions

As I continue to heal I find myself going up and down emotionally. I have times where I'm so danged grateful to be alive I'm practically shouting my "Thank You's" to the heavens, and other times when I'm in the darkest parts of my mind and it is hellish. In between is hope and energy, pain and frustration. I suffered a physical setback when I fell, and it spiraled from one thing into another. Then, a well-meaning friend stopped by and told me she'd been a few miles behind me that night of the accident, had driven by (not knowing it was me) and told me the accident scene was so horrific she is amazed that I am still here. I don't know why but when I hear others telling me about the accident it upsets me terribly. The flashes I have of it are so terrifying I don't want to remember them, and these recounts seem to do that. I do hope this fades with time. Today is cold and rainy so it's not helping my mood. I'm tired and still very sore as I recover from what should have been a non-incident (the fall) but in my semi-frail state I guess it's a big deal - ARGH!
Meantime, I've been doing the micro training thing. Blitz is coming along great. What he needs most is exposure so somehow I NEED to find the energy to drive to a shopping center and work him. Moto's work ethic is coming along great. He's presented a new puzzle to me: he does not understand what a correct front is. He knows to DO a front, but somehow I've failed to teach him when it's the GOOD front. He's doing the famous "sheltie bonk" (bad) and he's off-center a LOT. When I say "straight" he's not understanding where he should be. So, in my micro training program, this is going to be our focus. Good thing is he's willing to work with me on this and he really tries hard and wants to be right. I'm going to need to backchain all the way to puppy fronts in a chair I believe. He just doesn't have the concept of where he needs to be - crucial if we want to do well in Obedience. Interestingly enough he does understand the finish. He'll still be sloppy if I let him so I treat the finish as seriously as a stay. He understands that it's VERY important to do good and is showing good spirit and speed. In his heeling, it will be a slow process. I'm at the same point as my friend Laurie in that Moto gets tangled up in my legs while heeling now. His attention is very lovely and he's getting it about correct position so "slow and steady" is the name of the game here. And more so than Mr. Blitz, he is rock-solid on his stays. If Blitz and I fail in our Novice pursuit, it will be because of the stays. For Blitz, it's time to do more proofing. He's not been exposed to many different situations because of his illness and still needs to learn to stay if another dog moves, or if there is a sudden noise (applause, a door slam).
So, my work is cut out for me. I just need to have the energy to do it!