One Step Closer to Heaven

It wasn't a big step, but a step nonetheless, I noticed Blitz slip away just a little further. He tires much more easily now and drools into his food while he is eating. Eating itself is becoming a longer and longer process and he is beginning to have difficulty swallowing. I don't believe The End is imminent but this "death by inches" is beginning to take its toll.
I've come to the decision that I don't want to fight for his life any longer. My goal is to keep him comfortable and allow him to have the best quality of life he can. If he weren't in pain it would be a different story but his skin is so creepy-crawly all the time I cannot imagine what it must be to live in that deteriorating body 24/7. I debated bringing him with me to Obedience camp next week - it's 4 days, 8 hrs/day of lectures and working, but unless he needs medical attention I am going to bring him, just so he can get out and do something. I think he will enjoy the "mommy time" of he, I and Moto in the hotel and in the class. He's not so ill that he needs to be close to a vet so we will all go together.
Plus...it will be the first "really big drive" since my car accident. I'm so fortunate that a caring group of friends is going to meet me and we will caravan up to the Camp together, and we are all staying at the same hotel. I appreciate their helping make me feel comfortable with this big step.
I've realized I NEED to take supplements to help me heal from the accident. I was feeling really, really great and when they ran out I didn't order more and then the pain hit big-time. It's taken a few weeks for them to kick back in and I am finally returning to a more energetic productive life. I wonder when and if I will ever have my old self back again? It's this question that brings on profound depression so I try to box it up and put it somewhere so as not to torment myself.
I'll end this on a positive note - it's an absolutely GORGEOUS weekend - no humidity, low temps and nothing scheduled. Moto and I will take advantage of this and do some training and I will attempt a hike in our beautiful nearby park, where Moto, Shiloh and I will walk around the lake. I do feel blessed to be alive and take in all the beauty around me. Life really is a precious commodity and I do feel like it's Christmas every day.