Six Month Marker

It's been six months now since the car accident, so thought I'd make an assessment of how I'm doing. I think pretty darned good actually! There are still lots of frustrations since I still can't do everything I used to (like exercise). I had gone back to the treadmill - just walking like I was told to do - and even then it was too damned much. So now as I'm recovering from THAT, I will try the treadmill again, but the Dr. said just do 15 minutes *sigh*. I look forward to the day I can once again run a few miles every morning on it, but the good news is that day will eventually come, and I'm lucky for that.

The saddest thing is I don't think I'm my "old self" mentally either. My brain is a bit re-wired. I never was a nimble on my feet thinker, but there seems to be a lot less static noise, in fact it's eerily quiet inside my brain. It used to be like a little machine constantly churning and working through things and I used to have the most fantastic dreams. My wonderful chiropractor did a muscle test on my entire body so we could determine what whole food supplements would help me move forward in my healing. There was no surprise when she found my brain was not functioning at its full capacity. She also said I was still stressed out from the accident and while I'm pretty much sleeping through the night like I used to, she said it's not a deep sleep. So some supplements to help aid sleep and more for healing of my poor weary brain. When with a group of people say at a party I feel out of place and want to hide. I've never been outgoing but I've never had THAT feeling before. So...things have changed and I hope that goes away eventually. It just makes me real sad.

My left arm still bears bruises from the accident but you have to look pretty hard to see them now. I still have to work at using it - reaching behind my back hurts, pulling a shirt over my head hurts, raising my hand straight out and back hurts. But I do it, every day, and it hurts less and less.

So it sucks but it doesn't suck. I'm alive, I'm whole and I will recover. I'm extremely lucky to be here and have a pretty good handle on how tenuous life really is.

Moto training notes: I took him to where my office is. It's in the center of town (mind you, it's a very small town). There's a fountain and cars stop regularly at the stop sign, and there's a day care next door. I was really happy that he took a treat right away. We did a little bit of play but he jumped into working mode very quickly. Now another problem arose: he's lagging when I change to the "fast" pace. We'll work on that at home, tomorrow morning. He did some nice heelwork otherwise and understands he has to keep his head up when working. I really hope I can get him to love heeling as much as I do, to me this truly shows the relationship with your dog. To the true obedience fanatic there's nothing better than a lovely heeling team. We'll keep working at it. This is a picture of Blitz in his one show he was well enough to enter. Blitz adored heeling as you can see. I know I won't get this much flash, but I think Moto can produce a lovely, floating cadence once we get our teamwork figured out.