One Year Ago Today

I'm at the one year mark since the car accident. Rather than focus on what happened then, I will reflect on what is happening now. I'm glad to be the Old Me again, but I have definately changed, mostly for the better. This is my second time cheating death. Seems to me I have had more close scrapes with the Grim Reaper than the average civilian. A lot went wrong to cause the accident but a lot went right as well. So many tiny changes could have been catastrophic. Again, as when I escaped the workplace shooting, I realize how we are lucky to be alive each and every moment, as the next one can be taken away in an instant.
What's different with this most recent escape from death was the recovery. Such simple things like tucking in my shirt became a priviledge. When you can't do it for the longest time it becomes a triumph when you can. Waking up in the morning pain-free is another delicious pleasure. Just being able to be ME is a very recent pleasure. No more depression swings. I can now go through my life just like I used to without any cobwebs from the past attacking me.
Another good thing that happened was my newest Heart Dog, Moto. My eyes are misting up thinking about this. When Erik brought me home from the hospital, this young dog showed that he has empathy, an emotion a lot of people think dogs are not capable of. He was ecstatic but unlike the other dogs he did not try to jump up. During my recovery he was gentle and never pulled on his leash. We got to develop the very special bond that will carry us through the rest of our journey together. I still don't know how he will do in Obedience, but because of our strong bond I know he will give it his best. No matter what happens I know that this dog is going to be my Right-Hand Dog and steady companion as long as we both shall live.
I discovered how lucky I am to have Erik my husband. He was brave and strong. I needed that. He supported every triumph and consoled me when I didn't succeed. Our marriage is definately a lot stronger and better since the accident. He's the love of my life and I am truly blessed to have him.
Financially we may not be better off but we still have a roof over our heads and food in the 'fridge. Overall, one year ago today, we ARE better off, and these life gifts we possess are priceless. I am grateful for this beautiful life!