Letting go and looking ahead

Yesterday was emotion-packed.  I took Blitz to our obedience class to see how he was feeling.  Yes, he was rushed indoors because it was pouring rain.  He had no time to become acclimated; however he'd been there many times before.  He just couldn't do well.  Even after he had gotten used to the noisy environment (rain on a metal roof) and he tried his very best, I realized it's time to let go and forget the idea of showing him.  Permanently.  I realized I was holding onto the dream of us having one triumphant moment in the ring, then I could retire him.  But the hard truth is, it just cannot be.  It's not fair to show a dog - healthy or not - that isn't sufficiently prepared to be shown.  While he was trained quite a bit when he was younger that will not help him now.  Completed class swallowing down the lump in my throat.  I watched "Glee" the previous night and this song hit me between the eyes - the performance of "I Dreamed a Dream".  Yes, it's a bit dramatic, but it captures the emotion I feel of letting go of showing Blitz, my magnificent, special boy.

http://www.youtube-nocookie.com/watch?v=6DqVJ8KOKm8&feature=related

He'll remain at home, much loved, to enjoy the rest of his life.  Thank you Blitz for all you have taught me.
When I arrived home hubby offered a loving shoulder to cry on but then the phone rang:  it was Blitz's breeders - the bi-black I'd had my eye on was mine!  I was so thrilled I screamed!  Because of all the "coincidences" his name will be Cameo Dream Came True, call name "Pinch" as in pinching yourself when a dream is so good.  He'll be here first week of June.  A clean slate and a new beginning.
Then I saw I had voicemail on my cell phone.  It was my sister, and Barry has been accepted into a clinical trial to treat his cancer.  That too will begin the first week of June.  Once again hope is rising.
Perhaps this is a sign of things to come:  someone will hire my husband and legal issues from the car accident will be resolved. 
What was so amazing about yesterday was: one dream died, but I was quickly blessed with another dream to take its place.  And to never give up:  when you have hope, miracles can happen.